I’m a human that has a ability to hold a grudge but also I have the ability to love my fellow man.And I will never hurt someone who hasn’t tried to hurt me but I will never go to there level. The reason why is because somewhere in me has control of my rage. I wanted to snap at some one for so long the rage was bundling up but my mind brought it down my will brought it down and for the most part my heart and soul wouldn’t let me. The reason I think why is I didn’t want to become someone who just use my fist for the wrong reason because once I start down that path I know I won’t stop so my mind and heart told me to let it go but never forget nor forgive. The reason why I won’t is the minute I do is the minute I let them think they were right. In a way that’s the grudge part of my mind the other part of me probably wants me just to fully let it go give up all my rage let my heart heal in a way I’m my only enemy but that’s my problem.I have to control my rage because it’s my curse brought on by my birth because I hold it all in never letting it go but I will fight for the things I love that’s when I let my rage out but not for the negative reason I let it out as a passion but controlled. Some see me as a person who laughs for no reason or thinks I’m a bit crazy and I somewhat agree with them because if I wasn’t crazy I would have snapped a long time ago some see me as a bad person well the opinion on me does not matter at all as long as I’m happy with my self then who cares what others think? My body pushes me as much as I push it and it beats me every day my mind does the same but it pushes as hard or more harder then my body the reason I think that the mind pushes you more then the body is because your body can tired out and you can push yourself through the pain. But the mind can never tire as long as your willing to learn your mind can send you to places as long as you can imagine but when it wants a brake or to rest for a minute it will push you to do that more then the body. I now tired quicker because of my soul is older then my body. I have moments where I’m not thinking of the now I’m think of the future what job will I have, will I have enough money for my own food, will I have enough to give to my mother to pay for all she’s done for me?