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sonicman613

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I’m a human that has a ability to hold a grudge but also I have the ability to love my fellow man.And I will never hurt someone who hasn’t tried to hurt me but I will never go to there level. The reason why is because somewhere in me has control of my rage. I wanted to snap at some one for so long the rage was bundling up but my mind brought it down my will brought it down and for the most part my heart and soul wouldn’t let me. The reason I think why is I didn’t want to become someone who just use my fist for the wrong reason because once I start down that path I know I won’t stop so my mind and heart told me to let it go but never forget nor forgive. The reason why I won’t is the minute I do is the minute I let them think they were right. In a way that’s the grudge part of my mind the other part of me probably wants me just to fully let it go give up all my rage let my heart heal in a way I’m my only enemy but that’s my problem.I have to control my rage because it’s my curse brought on by my birth because I hold it all in never letting it go but I will fight for the things I love that’s when I let my rage out but not for the negative reason I let it out as a passion but controlled. Some see me as a person who laughs for no reason or thinks I’m a bit crazy and I somewhat agree with them because if I wasn’t crazy I would have snapped a long time ago some see me as a bad person well the opinion on me does not matter at all as long as I’m happy with my self then who cares what others think? My body pushes me as much as I push it and it beats me every day my mind does the same but it pushes as hard or more harder then my body the reason I think that the mind pushes you more then the body is because your body can tired out and you can push yourself through the pain. But the mind can never tire as long as your willing to learn your mind can send you to places as long as you can imagine but when it wants a brake or to rest for a minute it will push you to do that more then the body. I now tired quicker because of my soul is older then my body. I have moments where I’m not thinking of the now I’m think of the future what job will I have, will I have enough money for my own food, will I have enough to give to my mother to pay for all she’s done for me?
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MUSIC

1 min read
some people ask me why is music a big part of your life? My answer is you learn someone's history or there's a meaning behind a song theirs also the fact if you listen to a curtain song with your eyes close and focuses on the song a little video in your head starts playing and your trying to find out the mean behind the song you will enjoy that song a bit more then usually. If you find out the meaning behind one song there also can be no meaning behind a song. Because the meanings there but your heads finding a new meaning behind that song because your love for that song is so strong.If you listen to a song once and you hear just the piano, guitar or the drum in and there a little smile or big one on your face because you knew whos playing or what song its from. The reason music does that to us humans is because it can save us from a dark place and put us in a lighter area of life
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Snow and Colors

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this is form a journal I have irl I write in I would like for the comments on this to be nice but I'm not going to hold my breath and if any of you people of reviews for this be as a good of a review as you want I wont judge 


I like it when it snows cause it shows the the world colors. As they go away making you love them just a bit more since without colors it makes realize the world is painful and full of sorrow. But the more people you let in the more the world is full of colors like life and love. Take a minute now and then to look outside and unconnect from the web to look around and see how much mother nature gives with father time to make even a minute of you life wonderful. Listen to the bird and enjoy the the sound of mother nature. But if you like to take a walk and listen to your music then do it because sometimes your brain goes blank then a answer to a problem in your life or question with come to you. It will fell wonderful because at humans core we want to know stuff but we are also greedy and we also think were so strong but really were weak but were both at the same time. There are times where I want to let lose of the demon or the shadow inside of me and hell I want to listen because my shadow wants me to let go off all this angary and bitterness in me just let him deal with it but the light side of me is keeping me from doing that and being a good man but I dont know how long I can keep listing to the light when the darkness in me just wants me to be a kid my age and and think of dumb stuff and trying to get a girl and where the light is fine with being a asshole and being alone
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I had a friend back in 2010 he was my best friend and a great artist when I was in Oregon for my winter brake his steep father kill him and this wont's the first time he was hurt by him I let him a book of mine called 500 anima characters and all the images where black and whit and he wanted to color it he came back to school after a week and he had a cut on his hand I ash him if he was ok and he said he was fine.  My uncle his in prison and me and my grandma were wondering where my friend was wondering where did the steep father go well he is in the same place my uncle is
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